I spent a good bit of it working out of town, and had to give up my one day off too. Work has been slammed, which is a good thing after too many years of lackluster business, but that means it’s kicking my ass right now, too. When you’re in a different location every 48 hours, it’s hard to plan healthy meals or get enough sleep, which adds to the exhaustion. There’s a saying: failing to plan is planning to fail. I agree with that in principle, but in reality, when you’re rushed, pushed for time, and stretched to your limits, something’s got to give. In my case, it’s meal planning. Which is stupid because I feel so much better when I make the effort. Vicious circle, I know.
Why am I telling you all this? Because by the time Fridays roll around, I’m usually pretty fried. As a matter of fact, I just sat down to open the WIP when I got a text from a client and I had to talk her through a pet emergency. I can see that it is unlikely I will get any constructive writing done now–it’s getting late and I have a full day’s work tomorrow too.
I’m at the point in the WIP where I absolutely loathe it and am convinced I am a crappy writer, that the story is permanently and irrevocably flawed, and that I will never be more than one of the
delusional hopeful thousands who clackety-clack type furiously on their keyboards with the dream of one day having a bestseller. Then I can quit my day job and spend all my time writing more stories, right? Yeah, if only.
So you can imagine my utter delight when I received an email telling me to go check out this latest jessewave post: I HEART Shifters by reviewer Lasha. In it, she lists her top 15 paranormal M/M romances written in the last three years.
Crying for the Moon is on the list! I don’t know about you, but I am delightfully surprised! Crying for the Moon has certainly received some wonderful reviews (and it was an August 2011 recommended read on jessewave as well) but I’ll be the first to admit, it is not your typical paranormal story. I hadn’t read any vampire or werewolf fiction when I wrote it–my only knowledge of vampires came from dimly remembered horror movies watched when I was a child. And I’m not a horror movie aficionado. Everything else I just made up as I went along, creating a universe where these creatures made sense to me. Believe it or not, Crying for the Moon started out as a short story prompt for an anthology about lesbian vampires. I know! I know! What happened? 🙂
Anyway, when I was finished with the first draft, I had a full length novel on my hands and not much of a market for it. As I was already published with Dreamspinner, I decided to convert the main characters to men. What an undertaking that was! Not a simple find and replace of names and pronouns. Men walk, talk, move, and think differently from women. Every line had to be re-written to get the male perspective right. In the end, I think it made the story stronger. I’m glad I had the experience of transforming this story.
But to have it make a list like this? From a reviewer who preferentially chooses paranormal stories to read? Well, this is an honor indeed.
Moreover, it is one of those validating moments that makes you think maybe you’re not such a bad writer after all. And despite the lateness of the hour, open that WIP file anyway.